We live in a very competitive society. I know that my work environment is competitive and sometimes, even my church environment is competitive also. One thing that really has helped me, is to find things that I love about whatever I am doing. When I manage to love my own life, it makes it easier not to be jealous about something that someone else has.
I will use church as an example. A few years ago, I was called to be in the young women's presidency. I have never worked with the young women before and all three of my girls were there so I really loved it. I went out of my way to do the job to the best of my ability and was so excited to be there. I was there less than a year and was called back to the primary as a teacher. I couldn't help but think I must have done something wrong.
The young women's president assured me that she tried to keep me, but the primary needed me more. Understand, I have been serving in primary for more years than I can count. I was 14 when I was first called to teach. I love the primary, but I really love doing something different once in awhile. I also don't believe in turning down a calling, no matter how disappointed I might be, so back to primary I went.
I ended up teaching autistic children, something I had never done before. I also ended up filling in for other teachers when they did not show up. I discovered that I had a talent for teaching a lesson with little preparation. So many years of teaching have helped to make me, in some way, familiar with the lessons. I tried to always be willing to do anything that was needed without complaining. Then, in the summer of last year, I was called to be the primary chorister. This is perhaps the only calling in Primary that I haven't had the privilege of doing. I wasn't sure how it would go, or how qualified I would be. I struggled to find my own place in the teaching and singing time. Then I realized, that I did not have to be like any other chorister the kids have ever had. I could be myself and teach them to love music.
So, I am not competitive with anyone else for singing. I do things my own way. We have bells and egg shakers and scarves. We have learned more songs this year than ever before. I made leading batons for them to "help" me and learn new things. I love this calling. I love these kids. In short, the more competitive I am not, the easier it is to find my own place. The easier it becomes to make singing time and happy time for these children.
I have made books with the songs in them for the teachers and enjoy involving them in the singing. The children have really blossomed as we learn together that they are pretty much capable of learning anything, (and even singing it loudly!).
I am learning that by completing others, it makes my own calling so much easier to do. I love having this place of completeness in my life. It has taken me a long time to get here, even if the only person I was competing against was often myself. As I allow the support and encouragement of others to surround me, I recognize the miracle of harmony in my life. I am learning that Heavenly Father really does know where I needed to be. I am grateful that I allowed Him to lead the way.